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The sense of personal power you convey here is really palpable. My eldest is nearly 11, but you took me back to those early days. I remember feeling like I'd become a tigress and was scared at the realisation that I would now be capable of doing another human some serious harm if needed. I love the horcrux reference too. I have 4 children and I feel like I nourished each with a piece of my heart that is theirs to keep. I only feel truly whole now when I have them all with me.

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That is such a beautiful way to look at it! I can’t believe there was ever such a time when I wasn’t conscious of where she was at any given moment. I don’t feel that’s ever going to switch off now.

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"somewhere hooked between our world and elsewhere" - yes yes yes! could not love this more

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The greatest compliment coming from you! 💕

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I got goosebumps when I read the last line, “this year, I’m going to dress up as myself.” I love this SO MUCH, Abigail. You summed up the witchiness of motherhood perfectly.

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Thanks so much, I really appreciate that! I saw every hour last night due to little one’s teething, so I felt especially lank and witchy this morning!

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Aw I’ve been there! Mine just finished getting all four molars at once, it was a long few weeks. Sebring you love and sleepy vibes!!

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Oh wow, sounds like it took a collective strength to get through that!

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This gave me goosebumps of the best kind! I particularly felt those tingles you speak of... when we just know without even knowing yet. It’s pure magic 🪄

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Isn’t it just?? Even when I’ve been somewhere else in the first few months, the tingles coincide with when she’s been hungry at home 🤯

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I very much believe that as mothers, we remain tethered to our children even once they’re out and about in the world ✨

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Loved every word! Gosh you are so right about the power and the space in between... it’s a world we never knew! I’ve found it more intense this second time round and as we approach her third birthday I keep getting these pangs of “wow, gosh I’ve done it” - the hardest part I mean whilst simultaneously longing for the veil of all the pain of how hard it’s all been because in all of it I’m more alive (and dead tired) than I’ve ever been.

🧙‍♀️✨🌚⭕️❤️✨

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More alive and dead (tired) is exactly the way to describe it! It’s like that ten minutes before you wake up, when reality and subconscious are dancing with each other and time has no meaning, the all of a sudden, bang! You’re there, in the very real present moment of it, this raw and heady motherhood.

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That’s it! I really related to your description of those tingles of knowing too... it’s wild how they our outside of our body but we still just know...

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I’ve always known mothers are bloody magical but this just proves it. Aren’t we just the most incredible beings!? Thank you for celebrating us, because we absolutely deserve celebrating; not only for our sacrifices but mostly because we are inherently magic 🧙‍♀️ ✨ 🤍 🌕

(P.s. I needed this today!)

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I’m so glad this resonated with you Kerry! In a world where Big Actions are often applauded, it’s so important to celebrate the everyday magic of parenting, which makes up the whole world of our little people 💕

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Mmm yes ‘the everyday magic of parenting’. I am SO HERE for this ✨✨✨

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I love this... it makes me excited for motherhood 💫🔮

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It’s a wild ride! Every day is a jump into the unknown.

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curious to know if @Michelle at SPACIES feels the same

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I love this Abigail! 🖤 The wonder of mother-magic...

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Thanks so much Laura!

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Loved reading this, especially where you say, "The way that women use magic in literature is a reflection of the way we navigate every day life." I can totally relate!

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I feel like you and Sigourney Belle would get along really well haha! The witch in me sees the witch in you

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